to hav ever loved eu, was my mistake
i hope eu wont regret ur choice
there are still many thing i would wanna sae to eu
but i guess thrs no nid now eh?
eu haven change a single bit since i last toked to eu
unpredictable emotions
stubborness
bad temper (oh yes eu hav i jus kept quiet tts all)
the list goes on
but most importantly
ur jus urself afterall
n tts enuf to draw a smile across my face

however thrs always things tt kept our distance
misunderstandins at 1st
got worst
and we started to lie
yes, mi too
long story
we got over them though
little by little
but the bonds were breakin faster than it heals
until that dae i gave up
cos its jus not benefitting anyone
sayin gudbye truely wasnt easy

frm then on, eu started to stead ppl openly
one aft another
i didnt interrupt, hoping tt eu noe wad ur doin
but no
especially the dae i tried to tok to eu
n learn about eu then

these few weeks thru weekend sms
i was in mixed feelings
apart of mi was.. happy
but another part of mi wasnt
eu start to throw mi questions about things i din even noe about
i kept my cool n tried to work things out
n eu got worst
ridiculous as a matter of fact
den i was tempted to get rude
shot eu afew lines to wake eu up
but they jus couldnt get thru ur skull
eu atked my wounds and weaknesses
eu treat mi lyk trash
n i got so angry i did de same
n now
i hate eu

at times i thought to myself
maybe i did sumting tt hurt eu dearly
i try the advised qingyang n weinan told mi
'bear wif them, eu noe how lucky eu will be if eu do'
i believe
but den i returned requesting for plan B

when eu told mi to send a msg to him
i got jealous, i tink
but it doesnt matter now
eu wont listen to mi
eu dun trust mi
eu treat mi lyk a toy
eu ignore mi
ur tellin mi eu dun wanna hurt his feelins anymore
well den has it occured to eu tt ur hurtin mi?
no?
i thot so
im not ur toy
im not ur slave
eu cant jus order mi ard
guess it rlly over
eu disapoint mi more than ever
gudbye... charmaine ong