home...
which is known to be the best place ever...
~i tink otherwise...

parent...
said to be someone you need more than anyone else...
~bullshit...

life..
everyone has one... and only one...
suppose to cherish it and live it to the fullest...
enjoy every moment you have alive...
~wad a joke...

love...
the language of the world...
speaks from the hart...
everyone needs it...
~wad kind of crap is this?...


my world is topsy-turvy...
and it always will be...
y am i here?
y am i even born?
do i hav to suffer this?
15 years and counting...
15 years...
long enuf to cre8 wonders...
long enuf to turn black hair grey...
long enuf to see the world...
...long enuf to turn an infant to a teen...
in this 15 years...
wad hav i truly achieved?...
was it to best your best in eveyting?
was it to jus get up, survive, and go bak to bed?
or was it to find out wad life is really about...

now...
i find no interest to move on...
i couldnt care-less about everyting...
nothing turns out right...
even the best place on earth called home is a living hell
even your closes parents cage you in lyk a monster...
tinkin that its the best for you...
they dont trust you becos you make mistakes...
they dont understand you...
they only wanted you to be wad they planned for...
they care too much... poisonin you instead...
although they love you... its hurtin you dearly...
even life can be sufferable...
its true that not everyting in life will turn out to be as planned...
but will anyting ever work out as planned?
i wonder...
could it be that i haven tried hard enuf?
possible...

i will press on...
dont trust mi...
dont count on it...
cos im plannin on wad i shld do...
n nothing works well for mi...
im livin a life full of regrets...
im not sure if i can survive to be bak here postin tmr nite...
its gonna be chaos... hell reign